Look into the window of soul

Warning, the following content might have a minor degree of narcissism.

Read it with your own risk.

Okay, I was having a shower just now and suddenly a flash back occurred (Funny, this shit always happen)
I remember few weeks ago I was going to Sungei Wang to meet up with my friend.
On the way there, I was in the Starline LRT.


I forgot which station, but there was this girl.
About 165 cm tall, in her 20s.
She got an angelic face. Very pretty, a bit too thin for my liking though.

The moment she came into the train I noticed her. I believed she noticed me too.
How would I know?


Because she did this thing that I used to always do.
She looked away when I looked at her  :)


Damn, I can't stopped but put a smirk on my face when she turned around as I stared back at her :P


It is so fun to see her blushed and get nervous.
She was exactly sitting at the opposite of me and just when I thought, "Okay, she knows that I know she is looking at me, perhaps it is no fun to give her a sudden stare anymore"

Who knows, the moment I closed my eyes for a little 'doze' (I usually do this in buses and trains), she started to look at me again... and she thought I didn't know.

How do I know that?
It is because I caught her looking at me again when I give her a stern look in the eye.

Then after 5 minutes (Damn, that feels like eternity), I was closing my eyes again for a little rest, then open my eyes to see what is happening around.

There I saw her closing her eyes too.
It just get me wondering, is she copied me because she saw me dozing too?


I mean, after all the blushes that she gave me, how can I resist myself from having such a thought?


I was actually smiling everytime I caught her looking at me.
Damn, it was fun.

Actually I have more experience of this when I'm dating with my EX last time, but that will be another story.



So there you go, a little thought of mine.
I think the reason some people doesn't have this encounter before is because of them being too afraid to look people (or strangers) in the eye when you glance at them.
The eyes is like the handphone of your body, it transmits signals to the other person.
So use it wisely to your advantage.

TILL THEN

HAVE A NARCISSISTIC DAY

The day I nearly get myself killed (14 sept 2009)

Okay, it may sounds dramatic, but seriously. It does happen to me, not once, not twice, but TRIPLE TREAT!!



As some of you might know, I'm an asthma patient, even though I don't get it much recently, I still be very careful with what I consume. Because when I was a child, I've been involved with some serious case of asthma.


Just so you know, when someone got hit by asthma, one will have difficulty in breathing, and I mean really really serious type of disease. A patient will be unable to breathe normally and may force to resolve in using some equipment (that is if he/she is not dead before that)


I got it twice when i was young, my parents were bloody shocked when I first experienced it, It was like a nightmare.

Weird things go through my mine as I'm wondering will I die just like that?
Will I pass away even before I hit twenty?

Only by then I realize, life is short, we have to live life to the fullest!

Only through that, i realize, I've changed.

I've become quite laid-back and just enjoying things in slow pace (my mom said this is lazy=.=)

Well, I really cherish my life, and that is why I'm afraid to die because I escaped death TWICE. （That's why我很怕死的, DC & Hsen!!）

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Back to the topic. That day I have been loomed with dizziness and lots of flame, and usually when flame overflowed, it means difficulty in breathing. And that is just the case.

I can't sleep in the middle of the night, having this severe cough and asthma hit me as I was wondering is this H1N1 I'm experiencing??

It was so scary... Very scary...
I nearly faint.

But I know that time that I have more to achieve, I can't just stay there and do nothing. So I decided to go out to see a doctor.

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It is 2am in the morning, there are no people around walking by, I feel so alone, alone...

Midnight wind breeze through my face and shivering I felt vigorously. Walking around ss2 searching for the 24 hour clinic that will be my life saving hut.

But this effort left in vain...

No 24 hour clinic in ss2 on Sunday... It sucks really.
So I called DC & asked if there is a 24 hour clinic here.
But none he said.

And the nearest? Seapark...

Ya, as if I would go there alone...
By then, I was still in immense pain of not be able to breathe normally.
My heart was ranching but my lungs were not supporting what the heart wants.

I nearly died.

Later, I have to slow down my pace just to catch some breath...

1 second
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2 seconds
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3 seconds
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5 minutes passed and I decided to go back home and rest. Just hope that it will subside eventually.

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Reflecting back, I really did something stupid that day, I should be calling the other friends to accompany me to see a doctor.
But my brain then wasn't 'behaving' properly...
Thus giving me the hard time.



Well, I feel better now. At least that day's mishap has gone.
My advice?
Live life to the fullest.

TILL THEN

HAVE A NICE DAY^^